You talk about him as him he was shit.
You are acting like him,
You know that? -______-













































































no, you dont.


This will be a special post. =)
I will be saying the words in " " as i type them.
Since you wont read this blog, im sure it will be fine. ^^
Vulgarities are part of my " fucking " life.
I control till cannot tahan le.
I know i must let it out, well, i think here will do.
" FUCK "
" KNN CB "
" LJ "
"CCB "
" FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK "
" PCB PCB PCB PCB PCB "
"MOFO MOFO MOFO MOFO "
" HG HG HG HG HG "

ahhh, so much better,

" BITCH BITCH BITCH "
" BASTARD "
" FUCK HEAD "
" PUSSY "

ok, i guess im done. =) woo.

iam pissed though. =(


Life in school has improved a tweeny weeny bit i guess, due to the end of the beta submission nightmare. =) Spending less time on games recently, supposedly its good, but even though im gaming less, no extra effort or time has gone to my studies. Instead, studies are reciving even less time then ever. =( ahh, back to my inmm, im not revising, im in class. =)


HELLO!

I was wondering if i should put the word " people ". After a few seconds on serious thinking, i decided not to. Why? because i think that most people i know already think my blog is D-E-A-D. haha well, heres a post to give it a little spark of life! hoho. ^^

Ah well, at least i will have one person i know will be definitely reading this post, TOOTSTER MUGGER NERDDDDDDDDDDD ! lol. Ok, back to my life.

What to say about my life? Well, i have several words for it.

Lonely,
Sad,
Depressed,
Hurt,
Iced,
Fucked,
Dead.

=( Aw, not alls true, only the first, which applies to me in school. Sad, not really, the rest are fake. lol. arg @*$&@#*@^##* enough crap already.

Life seems to have no meaning for me anymore, everyday i just go to school, do my stuff, stay in a corner and dont talk to anyone, well, whatever. Some people say im shy, some may say im dao, lol or perhaps they say nothing at all, i do not know. All i know is, time can let you adept to most things, im sure of it. For my entire schooling life, i have never ever been an outcast, a lone ranger, an emo kid sitting alone in the corner of the classroom with no friends. Yet, for the first time in 18 years, i find myself sitting at the front of every class, i find myself no talking for 4 hours at a time, i find it hard to participate in group work, i do not share the same jokes with everyone else, i do not laugh along when the whole class is R-O-F-L, i do not meet anyone before class, i eat ALONE,i walk ALONE, i work ALONE, i go home ALONE, omg whatever, im like ALONE most of the time. I have gotten used to it, and i find that i really dont mind at all. I can blame no one actually, it was i who had rejected their advances to make friends with me. I never tried to act cool or anything, its just, i have lost all interest in studying and poly life. There are some facotrs in poly that make it less shitty though, and i guess the one that makes poly better is definitely the boy who is named Joey Peh Jin Wei. Brother, Bro, Dawg, Dog, he's all of them, as all my bros are. He's one of the few in world that know me very well, he's one of the few that are makes my life better just by walking wth him. yes, hes one of the BROTHERS. =) * afk *

"10 brothers were the source of laughter and motivation i had in sec school. bloody hell i know alot people think we are idiots but fuck man we are having the time of our lives together......but then, some of us just had to leave huh?"

I just went to joey's blog, to find that omg touching 10 bros post. i found this first. Awwww im going to shed some real tears. =( I have just finished reading the post, and well, what can i say, I FUCKING LOVE YOU PEOPLE, YOU ALL MAKE MY LIFE GODDAMIIT WORTH LIVING. MUACKS ALL OF YOU SICK BASTARDS. =)I know i can never find another group of friends so true. =)

Ohmy, it seems that my spark intended to give life has turned into a flame. Lol, whatever. So let me give a current update on my life.

I'll wake up in the morning.
Go school.
Sit in class and not do anything.
Come home and think about how im going to die when submission dates are due.
Chat on msn.
Off my comp.
Sleep.
Well, just loop it yeah? Till poly life ends maybe?

Chatting on msn is fun. I mean, getting smart when chatting to T.M.N is great! Great person to chat with. =) i promise i'll sing a song for you next time. =) But you play piano, savvy?

Inmm. Its like a fucking big stone in my life, or rather blockage, obstacle. To clear it, im going to start work on it now. =) Cya people, you all know i cant be kept like this in a hole forever, i got too much SOUL to be put in a hole. BYEBYE.

ps. i hate school.


i shall give a short update of my life now. IT SUCKS. =(


I AM SO DEAD.

ok so i am going to have a very hectic week. =-.- my timetable:

today : finish at least 8 pages of Ides.
Tml: Complete my Ides. MMP Storyboard scanning.
Wednesday: Complete storyboard, Start on Wallpaper, hopefully complete it.
Thursday: Complete wallpaper if not done, CD cover start, hope can complete.
Friday: Complete CD cover, Start on 2nd interface, Complete it. Start on Dtat.
Saturday: Bunk, hopefully. Dtat.
Sun: Dtat Dtat / MMP Presentation
Monday: Dtat/ MMP presentation
Tuesday to end: all that i haven done. Hopefully nothing.

OK DONE. My first ever self-made and hopefully IMPLEMENTED timetable for poly life !! wooooo. Ah haven blogged in a long time it seems. -.- Aiya too much mapling la. =) soon to be top dit in delp, second time im saying this, and its much closer. 4 lvls and 38% to go. Hm, not mapling much for this week le, desperately trying to find someone to help me, in case QQLuffyQQ takes over me. That cb guy chiong so fast. Ahh, a few screen shots to end the post.














IMFxiaoqian aka Raylene Liow my dearest ^^














Papulatus down.














Yes, Same as my title.














-.-"


So let me get this straight
Say now you loved me all along
What made you hesitate
to tell me with words what you really feel?
I can see it in your eyes
you mean all of what you say
i remember so along ago, see I felt that same way
Now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
Insignificantly enough
we both have significant others

Only time will tell
Time will turn and tell

We are who we were when
Could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who, we are who we were when

Who knew what we know now
Could have been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when

But thoughts they change
and times they rearrange
I don't know who you are anymore
Loves come and go and this I know
I'm not who you recall anymore
But i must confess
you're so much more than I remember
Can't help but entertain
these thoughts of us together


We are who we were when
Could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could have been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when

My day late friend

So let me get this straight
All these years
and you were no where to be found
And now you want me for your own
But you're a day late
and my love, she's still renowned





guess the song people. however, no prizes for getting it right. lol. ok, so basically, ytd, went to celebrate darren's birthday. =)Its been such a long long long long long time since i had such a great time, with my bros. omg i actually could use up all my fingers to count them. =)) Terence the long lost one was here even. Well, his cousins bday he cant say no right. =) Even thou it was just a meal and some walking around, i felt so damn blooddyyy song. Its been quite a while since we walked ard with 10 people, since we all made fun of jj, since jj attacked us after our teasing, since terence was out with us, since i played in house dota. AHH bring back all the memories people. back back back to where we lasted.... lol. =))) and omg an added bonus, i saw JOANNA hahahaha omg. =) strange isnt it we live in bishan dont see each other at j8 at all but at town. lol. PRETTYYYY GIRL JOANNA LOL. =) ALRIGHTS EVEN THOUGH ITS 4.21AM IM STILL GONNA ENJOY MY SLEEP CAUSE I KNOW FOR SURE IM GONNA HAVE A SWEET DREAM. =)





zakum






zakum





BORING

haven blogged in quite awhile. and to pq yea i said i'll blog but haha omg lazy. Nothing much going on. School, and maple. School, well, to say the truth i really have lost all interest in it thanks to maple. and this is bad. I dont like it that much. it pulled my grades down thats for sure. I cant find any motivation at all to study and do my hmwk. fuck it. I know i cant compare myself to my other friends like qx, and rh. Hell, rp gives them no hmwk, the ability to pon school after you passed, and they only have a few weeks of school left to go before hols. but i just keep comparing. Ides, java, mmp, dtat, and all. SHIT them, im going to fail if i dont buck up, pull up my socks, whatever. I need motivation, can i buy them from 711? lol. ok lame =/. Hai, lifes getting worst, worst worst. I dont even know what keeps me going anymore. =( maple? lol.




wake me up.


MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL. =)

Just reached home from joeys house, abit shag but whatever i'll blog anyway. Gonna have to get some slp later have to go out to have lunch/dinner with family later. Shucks. i hope i dont miss anego. Tml is maple camp again. =) Hah. Looking forward to it. =) well. once again, merry christmas people, and happy birthday to terence, the long lost one.


First anti-wank cream, now condoms. wtf do i even look horny to you people?


and i miss pc bunk so freaking much i really want to go there and just slack there whole day. =(