You talk about him as him he was shit.
You are acting like him,
You know that? -______-













































































no, you dont.


This will be a special post. =)
I will be saying the words in " " as i type them.
Since you wont read this blog, im sure it will be fine. ^^
Vulgarities are part of my " fucking " life.
I control till cannot tahan le.
I know i must let it out, well, i think here will do.
" FUCK "
" KNN CB "
" LJ "
"CCB "
" FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK "
" PCB PCB PCB PCB PCB "
"MOFO MOFO MOFO MOFO "
" HG HG HG HG HG "

ahhh, so much better,

" BITCH BITCH BITCH "
" BASTARD "
" FUCK HEAD "
" PUSSY "

ok, i guess im done. =) woo.

iam pissed though. =(


Life in school has improved a tweeny weeny bit i guess, due to the end of the beta submission nightmare. =) Spending less time on games recently, supposedly its good, but even though im gaming less, no extra effort or time has gone to my studies. Instead, studies are reciving even less time then ever. =( ahh, back to my inmm, im not revising, im in class. =)


HELLO!

I was wondering if i should put the word " people ". After a few seconds on serious thinking, i decided not to. Why? because i think that most people i know already think my blog is D-E-A-D. haha well, heres a post to give it a little spark of life! hoho. ^^

Ah well, at least i will have one person i know will be definitely reading this post, TOOTSTER MUGGER NERDDDDDDDDDDD ! lol. Ok, back to my life.

What to say about my life? Well, i have several words for it.

Lonely,
Sad,
Depressed,
Hurt,
Iced,
Fucked,
Dead.

=( Aw, not alls true, only the first, which applies to me in school. Sad, not really, the rest are fake. lol. arg @*$&@#*@^##* enough crap already.

Life seems to have no meaning for me anymore, everyday i just go to school, do my stuff, stay in a corner and dont talk to anyone, well, whatever. Some people say im shy, some may say im dao, lol or perhaps they say nothing at all, i do not know. All i know is, time can let you adept to most things, im sure of it. For my entire schooling life, i have never ever been an outcast, a lone ranger, an emo kid sitting alone in the corner of the classroom with no friends. Yet, for the first time in 18 years, i find myself sitting at the front of every class, i find myself no talking for 4 hours at a time, i find it hard to participate in group work, i do not share the same jokes with everyone else, i do not laugh along when the whole class is R-O-F-L, i do not meet anyone before class, i eat ALONE,i walk ALONE, i work ALONE, i go home ALONE, omg whatever, im like ALONE most of the time. I have gotten used to it, and i find that i really dont mind at all. I can blame no one actually, it was i who had rejected their advances to make friends with me. I never tried to act cool or anything, its just, i have lost all interest in studying and poly life. There are some facotrs in poly that make it less shitty though, and i guess the one that makes poly better is definitely the boy who is named Joey Peh Jin Wei. Brother, Bro, Dawg, Dog, he's all of them, as all my bros are. He's one of the few in world that know me very well, he's one of the few that are makes my life better just by walking wth him. yes, hes one of the BROTHERS. =) * afk *

"10 brothers were the source of laughter and motivation i had in sec school. bloody hell i know alot people think we are idiots but fuck man we are having the time of our lives together......but then, some of us just had to leave huh?"

I just went to joey's blog, to find that omg touching 10 bros post. i found this first. Awwww im going to shed some real tears. =( I have just finished reading the post, and well, what can i say, I FUCKING LOVE YOU PEOPLE, YOU ALL MAKE MY LIFE GODDAMIIT WORTH LIVING. MUACKS ALL OF YOU SICK BASTARDS. =)I know i can never find another group of friends so true. =)

Ohmy, it seems that my spark intended to give life has turned into a flame. Lol, whatever. So let me give a current update on my life.

I'll wake up in the morning.
Go school.
Sit in class and not do anything.
Come home and think about how im going to die when submission dates are due.
Chat on msn.
Off my comp.
Sleep.
Well, just loop it yeah? Till poly life ends maybe?

Chatting on msn is fun. I mean, getting smart when chatting to T.M.N is great! Great person to chat with. =) i promise i'll sing a song for you next time. =) But you play piano, savvy?

Inmm. Its like a fucking big stone in my life, or rather blockage, obstacle. To clear it, im going to start work on it now. =) Cya people, you all know i cant be kept like this in a hole forever, i got too much SOUL to be put in a hole. BYEBYE.

ps. i hate school.